story of my liiife

Okay well first off, holy poop.. If I found a book with the tittle being my name, I would be trippin out for like a week. Literally. Of course I would pick it up, but I really don't think I would read what hasn't happened yet. Because then I have the ability to change what happens in my life.. like I know whats going to happen tomorrow because I read it, so I could change it if i wanted. Which I DONT want to do. I would reread past chapters just as reminders of things I don't have a great memory of. I would read about times I spent with my mom as a little girl and times we went out together just me and her. I would probably read about the times I made stupid decisions and laugh a little bit at myself. I'd read the chapters where I was happy and having a great time to remind myself that I can be happy and I've had a good life. It's not all bad. That's probably all I would read. I think the one thing that I would love to read about is my parents when i was about to be born. Which would be the first chapter. I was almost born in the steak n shake drive thru, and I'd really love to read about the experience it was for my mom and dad.

Hey, Sophomores! Good luck! :)

Here's my advice. Don't fall behind, it's WAY easier to stay ahead than it is to catch up from falling behind. Don't smack to the teachers, they seriously only want what's best for you and want you to get a good education. Don't get impatient, the teachers have a lot of students to deal with and they can't help us all at one time. Don't be scared, it's still school, it's still homework, and it's still teachers. I know it's hard to know this now, but I PROMISE you that you will realize now or by next year how much trying in school matters. I personally know this from not trying my best in school freshman year. I would go back and get better grades if I could. So do it now, not later. Get great grades, keep a positive attitude, stay on your teachers good side, and remember to be prepared. One last thing, get involved and have fun with it. This isn't the movies where you join all sorts of clubs and meet a bunch of new people, we're a small school with little opportunity for activities, but it's still important to be apart of the opportunities we DO have and enjoy the next 3 years of high school the best you can. I strongly advise you to REMEMBER everything that we previous sophomores have told you in this packet because if you follow our advice, it could seriously help you so much.

#AppreciationBlog

Most Interesting Part of This Class: Probably just coming to class every day knowing that Miss Hudson would have a smile on her face no matter what! Also, she is always laughing and I knew that I could always count on that. :)
Most Boring/Useless Part of This Class: Honestly, I don't believe there was ever anything in this class that was useless, or boring! I loved it and enjoyed every day in your class, Hudson. :)
Hardest I Laughed in This Class: HAHAH! You expect me to know this?!?! Either when I fell during my war demonstration (hahaha, i laughed forever). That's one of the things I remember best.
Favorite Memory from This Class: The rant assignment. Remember that!?!?! Golly, that was something! Definitely do that every year, Hudson. Also just coming to class every day and laughing about Hudson's great high school memories she has, except for Sarah. ew. ;b
Best Thing About Hudson as a Teacher: I can tell you anything and go to you for everything all the time. Hudson always had something great to say about my rants to her. You kept me going this year, Hudson!
Thing Hudson Could do to Make This Class Better For Future Classes: I think Hudson needs to make sure she never changes a thing. Her teaching right now is great and nothing about being in her class is difficult. She's great at teaching the students everything we need to know about something we're learning or reading. Also, you always make sure we understand what we've been going over with a nice homework assignment! ;b
Any Final Comments for Hudson: Dear Miss Elizabeth Hudson,
Thank you for helping me succeed my sophomore year. You helped pick me up when I was falling down and you were always supportive. Keep up the great work Miss Hudson. You are not only one of the best teachers ever, but you're also one of the greatest people I've ever met. Never lose your humorous, bubbly, happy, joyful and positive attitude. Thanks again Hudson :) ♥

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So as always, I'm really bad at making decisions.. so these are a few of my favorites that I saw.

1. In San Jose and Sunnyvale it is illegal for grocery stores to provide plastic bags. 
2. A man with a moustache may never kiss a woman in public. 
3. The penalty for jumping off a building is death. 
4. Students may not hold hands while at school. 
5. It is a crime to share your Netflix password in Tennessee. 
6. It is illegal to wear a bullet-proof vest while committing a murder. 
7. HAHAH! These are great! When I read the first one, I just think "I'm glad we never had to buy groceries in california.." like plastic bags illegal?? The second one cracks me up. Like honestly that's a little ridiculous! Some guys keep a mustache. What if he was leaving for a really long time and they were at an airport saying goodbye?? 3 is soooo funny. DUH the penalty is death!! You're probably going to die either way if you jump off a building! (without a harness or something). 4 is silly. 5 would not be okay for me. People let me use their netflix quite often. How would that work?! 6 is very.... odd. First off, that's like two laws in itself! It's illegal to murder anyways, I don't care how you're doing it or what you're wearing! ILLEGAL. What about cops? They wear bullet proof vests and kill people... dumb laws.

mistakes

I'm really not comfortable talking about some of my past mistakes. I've made quite a few. & honestly, I don't look at anything I've done in the past as a mistake. I think of it more as something I did that wasn't the best idea. There are a lot of things I chose not to do, and if I would have done them, biiiiggg mistakes would be in my life. Maybe even regrets. But because I am to tell you of my "favorite" mistake, it would have to be not trying in school freshman year. I didn't care about getting good grades or the effect it would have on my future. It was not until my sophomore year when I realized that I really should have tried. Now, actually, I do have a mistake. A big mistake. The biggest mistake of my life was letting go of the people that I shouldn't have let go of. I once let go of my dad. He had hurt me so many times, and I finally gave up. I left and kept him out of my life for too long. & by the time I realized it was a mistake, it was too late. He was gone and I couldn't get him back. Not for 6 months anyways. Now I have him back, and everyday I am reminded that I can't get that time back when I put him out of my life. Next, is my mom. On new years eve of 2013 into 2014, I was with 2 of the most loving people that I had in my life at the time. But a few minutes after midnight the whole world felt like it was crashing around me. I got some news that broke my heart into a million pieces. After that, I pretty much hated my mom more than words could ever explain. I even said once that I didn't love her. I never treated her right and I always put her down, even after she started trying to change. Finally, I changed my heart towards her. But just like with my dad, it was too late. My mom almost died and if she had, I would always have the burden and regret of how I treated her. Thankfully, my mom is still alive and she is fighting brain cancer. During the time things happened with my mom, I pushed away a lot of people just because I didn't care. I didn't care about anything really. I broke someones heart that didn't deserve it. I hurt them so badly. and then I went off and tried to forget about what I had done by doing something so beyond stupid.. which only made things worse. No big shocker huh? After doing that it was too late ONCE AGAIN, to make things right with someone. What I learned from this? I hate myself. I hate how I treated these people. I hate thinking about it. & mostly, I hate that I know I deserve all of this. I deserve to be hated. & I learned that I don't deserve forgiveness, so I decided to not even ask for it anymore. But from the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry to everyone that I've ever hurt.

#NutellaNation

I am a Nutella addict. I eat it like.. everyday. (Confession, I've eaten over 100+ jars in the past year). I don't regret one moment of eating those jars. I eat it with.... everything. Including my fingers & a spoon. It sounds weird, but sometimes I like pretending my nutella is a spaghetti noodle. Some may think this is totally gross but I have loved this food since I was in 6th grade. If you don't like nutella we probably aren't going to be very good friends. I looooooove eating it with saltine crackaas, pretzels, bread, pancakes, strawberries, crescent rolls, cinnamon rolls, milkshakes, waffles, the list goes on. I never get in trouble eating it.. even though I get it like all over me. My face, hands, clothes... etc. I'd probably be in trouble if I got it on stuff though.

I'm smart for once

My super power is knowledge. I have the power of knowing everything. Going along with this, I'm going to join the most top notch medical field in the world and develop the cure for cancer. This will be great because now America's leading cause of death won't be cancer, more people will be cancer survivors and families won't have to go through all the pain and suffering of their loved ones passing because of cancer. The cure will be the most well known and amazing thing this world has ever seen. Now Hudson, your great super power is being invisible. Seriously the things you would do if you were invisible. You would probably sneak onto the set for the newest vampire movie or something.

It's the quiet ones you gotta watch out for.

Oy Hudson! Your purple pen! I know who took it. You know that girl that sits in your class every day looking all innocent and doesn't talk much? She's got short blonde hair. you know who I'm talking about! Yeah well she took your pen! You thought you could trust her and her quietness. It's the quiet ones you gotta watch out for. Don't worry though I got it back for you. Monday morning if you look on your desk kind of on the right side in the middle, there it will be. Safe and sound. Now remember, you can't trust the quiet ones!!!

It takes a lot to know a person!

Okay as this game show thing.. I would bring 1. A a jar of nutella because nutella is like my life and if you don't like it we can't be together. 2. An owl. Owls are the most amazing creatures and I love them dearly. 3. A Grey ribbon. My mom has brain cancer & she is the most important thing in my life. Grey is the color that represents brain cancer & I want this mystery person to know that about me. 4. My medical history. If there's one thing you need to know about me before wanting to be with me, it's that I am not a very healthy person. I have a lot wrong with me & you better accept that. 5. Something purple. Purple is my favorite color.. it has been my whole life. That isn't changing either so you better know that about me, purple!
I don't have anything specific that I would look for because I don't have a certain taste in guys.. I either like you or I dont. If you have something really weird like a bag of toys that boys like to play with at age 5 then probably not. Bye bye to you buddy..

"Your circle of influence dictates your path."

First off, my five people are:

1. The Lovely Grandpa

2. Youth Pastor & his wife

3. Jonathan

4. Mama Bush

5. Rebecca May Bush


Grandpa- He is such a great person. He's old, and he has a lot of health problems. But yet he still works hard everyday. He still works the garden, cooks, cleans the yard, works in the garage, fixes things, and supports my lovely grandma. My grandpa is really supportive of the track that I'm on in my life. Every time I see him, he asks me how I'm doing in school and if I need anything. He is so strong. A really great thing about my grandpa lately is that he is paying half the cost for me to go to California. I love him more than words can describe.


Youth Pastor- Every week, my youth pastor & his wife are there for me. My youth pastor always has great words of wisdom to get me through the day. They do so much for me.


Jonathan- Oh goodness. This boy is my best friend. I can literally tell him everything and he's always there for me no matter what. He understands me and doesn't ever judge me for anything. We became sort of close a few months ago and I'm so happy that we did, because if we didn't, I wouldn't have a best friend like Jonathan. He recently moved really far away and I miss him a lot. My friends, especially my closest ones, mean so much to me, and not having them around is hard. I do miss him but we talk a lot still and stay in touch so that's really great. :)


Mama Bush- Before my mom was diagnosed with brain cancer, I didn't appreciate her as much as I should have. I focused a lot on the bad things about her. But I'm done with that. She has done so much for me in the past 15 years and now that she can't continue doing that, until her last breath I will give my mom everything and anything she needs. She is strong and amazing. I know she can fight this. #StayStrongForMamaBush ♥


Rebecca May- My dear sister. She has always gotten good grades in school and has a really great career plan for her life. We haven't always gotten along the greatest, but we do more lately now than we ever have before. Sometimes you have to go through something really rough to bring you close to someone. I think that's what has been happening this past week with my families relationships.

☑ Mentally dating a celebrity that doesn't know I exist

I have fictional crushes on a lot of people, honestly... like, c'mon! Writers are really good at making their characters extremely amazing. I loooooove Brad Pitt as Gerry in World War Z. Gerry loves his family and he sacrifices a lot for them. Ryan Gosling as Noah in The Notebook!<3 Noah has the most amazing passion. He's so sweet. He never leaves Allies side. I am in love with him. & then I have this love for Liam Hemsworth in The Last Song as Will. I could watch this movie over and over and over and over. Miley Cyrus hands down is amazing, but then put Liam in there and AHHH.<3 I think I like these characters so much because they treat their girl exactly how I would want to be treated from a boy.

- love.

This is probably the worst subject for me. I don't know what love is. I don't really know how to love.. I have told people that I love them. But I guess I am referring to the fact that they mean something to me. Not necessarily that I love them. It would be nice if someone could teach me exactly what love is, because I haven't the slightest clue. My mom told me that when I love someone, I'll know. Then there's the problem with I'm not really good at knowing my thoughts and handling them well. Some things go to my head, or I lie to myself. Maybe my mom is right though, when I love someone, I'll know for sure that it's not just in my head. This being said, I wouldn't take cupids arrow. I'm not well with love. & honestly, who am I to tell people who to love? Yes, there are people I wish I could tell "Hey, get with this person. YOU'D BE AMAZING TOGETHER." and force love upon them, but it is out of my comfort zone to get into peoples relationships. I have my own love life to worry about. Maybe I'll use his arrow of love to give me knowledge of what love is and how to truly love someone. I'm sick of having relationship issues because of that word. "Love." Isn't love suppose to be beautiful and wonderful? The most amazing thing ever? I wisssshhhhh.. So far for me, it's been an ugly struggle. Thanks, Cupid. Thanks.

 i have this sort of battle with myself. Sometimes I want to be little again and some other times I dont. I had a horrible child hood but there are some things that i miss about it. If I was younger again I would listen to the people that tried telling me right from wrong. I would spend more time with people that I knew. I would start eating broccoli since it took me so long to realize that I absolutely love that food. Same with meatloaf. I would definitely without a doubt take all those naps that I missed out on. perspective? when I was little I knew a lot about stuff. I do today too. But back then I didnt know how much pain I would have to go through. And when I was little I didnt know how to deal with pain. I had this idea that every life was the same. I didnt know that I had it worse or better from someone else. I do now though. & I know how to deal with my pain now. Sort of. I'd say that I would just be young again bso I could grow up again knowing what choices to make and not make. Stay away from the things I wish I wouldnt have done and gotten myself into. I dont know what else I'd consider for being young again, but it honestly doesnt seem that appealing to be young again..

Boys & girls, its nighty night time..

"Boys and girls, it's nighty night time. Happy J the Clown has a nursery rhyme. It's about, The Boogie Woogie Man. Keep your light on as long as you can, cuz when it cuts off, so does your head."

My sister used to sing this song ALL the time, right before I went to bed, too! So it always scared me. But I never actually had bad dreams about.

Anyways, yes. I have really strange dreams. Like, wacko dreams. I don't really tell them to anyone. I remember them, too. I dream in color and in first person. & nooo.. I'm not going to talk about most of the things I dream about. They are just way too strange. I learned though that when people dream, they never dream of imaginary people. It's always a face you've seen. Maybe even one you only saw for a split second in the aisle at wal mart. Or your drive thru window person at Taco Bell. And of course, people you know very well. The craziest dream I remember though is this. I was about 5 or 6 maybe. It's the only dream I remember from my childhood because it had a great impact on me. It is by far the craziest, weirdest, most odd and strange dream I have ever had. It went like this. It's also so strange because I remember every detail.
Their was a big room, and it was full of a lot of people. People everywhere. Most of the people were either normal people like you and me, or strange looking people wearing robes and pointy hats like the KKK. But they weren't those actual people. In this big room was a window. A window about as big as one in a classroom, and this window didn't have glass on it. The only actual item in this room was a red couch. The couch had 2 cushions on it. Under each cushion was a big red button. If you sat on this couch and the button was pressed, you became a star in the sky. So, you didn't really want to sit on this couch. There was only one way to reverse becoming a star. If a person looked out the window, down on the ground about 2 stories, a man stood by a big lever that would bring back the last person to sit on the button. My grandpa and I were in this room. We were together, but next thing I knew, he was gone. I looked across the room for him until my eyes spotted him. There he was, sitting on this small red couch with 2 cushions, pressing a button underneath. I ran to the couch and screamed, crying. I asked my grandpa why he sat on the couch, but before he could answer, he was fading away. Into the sky to become a star went my grandpa. I ran quickly to the window and screamed out at the night sky, to this big, bright, new star that appeared. The star was my grandpa. I knew that the only thing I could do is cry out to the man at the lever and beg him to reverse what has been done, to bring my grandpa back. I was screaming out to him, "Please!" over and over again. The man agreed, pulling on the lever aggressively. The lever was stuck and wouldn't budge for this man. I was yelling to pull harder and free my grandpa. Then, as if every bone in my dreamed body had snapped in half, the lever broke. I screamed no continuously. I lost myself in tears and yelling. I looked at the sky and cried at my grandpas star. Then, like all dreams end. I woke up.