- love.

This is probably the worst subject for me. I don't know what love is. I don't really know how to love.. I have told people that I love them. But I guess I am referring to the fact that they mean something to me. Not necessarily that I love them. It would be nice if someone could teach me exactly what love is, because I haven't the slightest clue. My mom told me that when I love someone, I'll know. Then there's the problem with I'm not really good at knowing my thoughts and handling them well. Some things go to my head, or I lie to myself. Maybe my mom is right though, when I love someone, I'll know for sure that it's not just in my head. This being said, I wouldn't take cupids arrow. I'm not well with love. & honestly, who am I to tell people who to love? Yes, there are people I wish I could tell "Hey, get with this person. YOU'D BE AMAZING TOGETHER." and force love upon them, but it is out of my comfort zone to get into peoples relationships. I have my own love life to worry about. Maybe I'll use his arrow of love to give me knowledge of what love is and how to truly love someone. I'm sick of having relationship issues because of that word. "Love." Isn't love suppose to be beautiful and wonderful? The most amazing thing ever? I wisssshhhhh.. So far for me, it's been an ugly struggle. Thanks, Cupid. Thanks.