"Your circle of influence dictates your path."

First off, my five people are:

1. The Lovely Grandpa

2. Youth Pastor & his wife

3. Jonathan

4. Mama Bush

5. Rebecca May Bush


Grandpa- He is such a great person. He's old, and he has a lot of health problems. But yet he still works hard everyday. He still works the garden, cooks, cleans the yard, works in the garage, fixes things, and supports my lovely grandma. My grandpa is really supportive of the track that I'm on in my life. Every time I see him, he asks me how I'm doing in school and if I need anything. He is so strong. A really great thing about my grandpa lately is that he is paying half the cost for me to go to California. I love him more than words can describe.


Youth Pastor- Every week, my youth pastor & his wife are there for me. My youth pastor always has great words of wisdom to get me through the day. They do so much for me.


Jonathan- Oh goodness. This boy is my best friend. I can literally tell him everything and he's always there for me no matter what. He understands me and doesn't ever judge me for anything. We became sort of close a few months ago and I'm so happy that we did, because if we didn't, I wouldn't have a best friend like Jonathan. He recently moved really far away and I miss him a lot. My friends, especially my closest ones, mean so much to me, and not having them around is hard. I do miss him but we talk a lot still and stay in touch so that's really great. :)


Mama Bush- Before my mom was diagnosed with brain cancer, I didn't appreciate her as much as I should have. I focused a lot on the bad things about her. But I'm done with that. She has done so much for me in the past 15 years and now that she can't continue doing that, until her last breath I will give my mom everything and anything she needs. She is strong and amazing. I know she can fight this. #StayStrongForMamaBush ♥


Rebecca May- My dear sister. She has always gotten good grades in school and has a really great career plan for her life. We haven't always gotten along the greatest, but we do more lately now than we ever have before. Sometimes you have to go through something really rough to bring you close to someone. I think that's what has been happening this past week with my families relationships.

☑ Mentally dating a celebrity that doesn't know I exist

I have fictional crushes on a lot of people, honestly... like, c'mon! Writers are really good at making their characters extremely amazing. I loooooove Brad Pitt as Gerry in World War Z. Gerry loves his family and he sacrifices a lot for them. Ryan Gosling as Noah in The Notebook!<3 Noah has the most amazing passion. He's so sweet. He never leaves Allies side. I am in love with him. & then I have this love for Liam Hemsworth in The Last Song as Will. I could watch this movie over and over and over and over. Miley Cyrus hands down is amazing, but then put Liam in there and AHHH.<3 I think I like these characters so much because they treat their girl exactly how I would want to be treated from a boy.

- love.

This is probably the worst subject for me. I don't know what love is. I don't really know how to love.. I have told people that I love them. But I guess I am referring to the fact that they mean something to me. Not necessarily that I love them. It would be nice if someone could teach me exactly what love is, because I haven't the slightest clue. My mom told me that when I love someone, I'll know. Then there's the problem with I'm not really good at knowing my thoughts and handling them well. Some things go to my head, or I lie to myself. Maybe my mom is right though, when I love someone, I'll know for sure that it's not just in my head. This being said, I wouldn't take cupids arrow. I'm not well with love. & honestly, who am I to tell people who to love? Yes, there are people I wish I could tell "Hey, get with this person. YOU'D BE AMAZING TOGETHER." and force love upon them, but it is out of my comfort zone to get into peoples relationships. I have my own love life to worry about. Maybe I'll use his arrow of love to give me knowledge of what love is and how to truly love someone. I'm sick of having relationship issues because of that word. "Love." Isn't love suppose to be beautiful and wonderful? The most amazing thing ever? I wisssshhhhh.. So far for me, it's been an ugly struggle. Thanks, Cupid. Thanks.